living raw today

Today I have been inspired as everyday to continue my raw journey. It is an amazing healing process. I love journeys, that allow so much clarity in my life. I have goals, and obtaining a goal is great, but the things you learn on the way is what I absolutely respect and look towards. To day a lovely lady wrote to me and told me she has been following my blog about being raw and she would like to learn more. I have heard this twice this week and it is just Tuesday. I had not been writing down my thoughts so much, they come fast. I am not as consistent as I would like. My addiction to cooked. Every single time I eat cooked, I am thrown into a world wind digestively. Yet I still struggle to not eat cooked food. My body is kind enough to try and digest it. I feel my pancreas trying, my kidney, my liver. Why do I do this. My brother us to tell me, you are only cheating yourself. My best benefits come from raw and hydrated foods. I feel so awesome. Rehabbing myself from old habits. The journey of learning to eat for nutrition and not memory, of nostalgia. It is challenging. I have never done drugs, or been a drinker, not ever even drunk in my 43 years. But, I have all the memories of a high from cooked food. Raw gives me great memories, great feelings, and nourishes my body. It has been seven years. Hey I will be some awesome 75 year old with awesome new memories. I am create a new road of good health, good feelings to now live off.

When I am sensible with my raw, I feel super womanish. I fly, I soar. I am juice feasting. Preparation is my key to not return into this pain. Being a raw foodist, having this great journey I coin new skills, preparation, awareness, consciouses. The light is clear.

Well today I started out juicing. I had some green juice before yoga, and some green juice afterwards. I then had a large salad juiced. I had water, and some fruit juice. Right there I had over done it. I felt I had over done it. I was eating and knowing why and not caring. I just wanted to eat. I wish I had taken time to hear myself. I just chose not to listen to myself. It all was raw but, It was too much food and I was no longer nourishing. I was eating to calm myself, but from what? Today, even though I am juice feasting. I do not want to over feast. I was not hungry.

It went all down hill after this. I can not even remember. All I know is I did not take time to hear myself and what I needed. It certainly was not food. I was fine. In the evening I recovered, by going running. Exercise allows me to take time to hear myself. It is just me running along the lake, unwinding my brain. Sometimes like last night, I just needed to work out some pinned up energy. I felt pinned up. No real thoughts. I just needed to move my body, in order to come to some peace.

So in continuing my journey. I want to eat to sustain myself, Not hide from my thoughts and feelings. I do not need all the food I like to eat. I enjoy the feeling of satisfaction, not feeling to full. I need to be nourished not stuffed. I am fine, and I am not wanting all the food I choose to consume at times. I am fine with resting on the eating. I need to replenish my liquids and get nutrients for my body. Nutrients not excess food. Hydrate myself. I am mostly liquid. I need to hydrate with nutrients.

My goal is to hear my self, rest my mind, food is king, exercise is queen. I need little food when it is highly nourishing, and I need much exercise to work my body to keep it well and able to heal itself. I am looking to release more weight to better be able to move during exercise. Right now I believe my goal weight is 135. I am 172. That is only 37 pounds to go. This is obtainable. The lighter I become, the faster I am able to move. I LOVE IT. I just am flying when I run. Feeling all my capability. Nourishment and working out really feeds my soul.

Imani